I have not done much writing on this blog over the past few years. I am not sure what its purpose is at this point. I began to lose my way with it some time ago.
When I began doing this, I had a set of beliefs that I thought were correct. That was back in 2007. I was part of a non-denomination church, but when the pastor started to interfere with the music ministry, I was discouraged. I ended up going to another church. Not because of the pastor’s interference, but because I switched jobs and worked on Sundays.
I began attending a Messianic congregation on Friday nights and Saturday mornings. A Messianic congregation is
“a modern syncretic religious movement that combines Christianity, most importantly, the belief that Jesus is the Jewish messiah, with elements of Judaism and Jewish tradition”(https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Messianic_Judaism).
I enjoyed attending the congregation because I was able to learn more about the traditions of Judaism. I enjoyed the dancing, the fellowship, and the friendliness. However, on one occasion, a man was removed who asked a question. It did not feel right.
Over time I found myself focused more and more on the laws of the old testament. This congregation was very focused on the Old Testament and the law of Moses. There is nothing wrong with that. However, I was becoming more discouraged in my life because of it. When you are￼ focused on the law instead of grace, you end up focused on ￼sin. Over time this can become very stressful. In time, I became discouraged. I worried that I could lose my soul. When sin is the focus in your life, discouragement is inevitable.
Focusing on our faults results in even more faulty behavior. Everything becomes about behavior modification. ￼Focusing on God’s grace results in rest and stress-free living because it shifts your focus from your self to God￼￼. When this happens, life becomes more natural. ￼￼Relationship with God happens.
After attending the Messianic congregation, I moved to South Carolina. I did not immediately try to find a new church to attend. I did continue to explore grace. I focused on the teachings of the apostle Paul. I read, over and over, the letters to the Galatians, Ephesians, Colossians, 1st and 2nd Corinthians.
There were also books by current authors like Rob Bell, C. Baxter Kruger, Bradley Jersak, and others. I felt I was being led by the Spirit of God to see different ways of interpreting scripture. I felt like I was being led by the Spirit to see a more accurate picture of God and what He is like.
I have come to realize that God IS love. I am beginning to understand that He is not likely to act outside his nature. And I believe that means that we have severely misinterpreted so many scriptures in the bible. I believe Jesus is the ultimate expression of who God is and what he is like. The book of Hebrews says about Jesus,
He is the radiance of the glory of God and the exact imprint of his nature, and he upholds the universe by the word of his power.Hebrews 1:3
From this and other places in scripture, I believe that Jesus Christ shows us a complete picture of what God is like. Any scripture that contradicts the nature of God according to who Jesus is, warrants a closer look.
There are many more discoveries I have been making. Discoveries I don’t feel qualified to even try to share. I won’t even comment on my beliefs about hell and eternal punishment. Just NO!
One thing I do know, my life has changed. My confidence in God is solid. My faith is more solid than it has ever been. I feel more secure in my relationship with God than I ever have. I feel safe in the universe. Of course, I don’t understand it all. I’m not even sure I understand what could be called “a little bit.” I am beginning to know God more than I ever have.
Anyway, I don’t have more to say. I’m not even sure I could convey anything else I’ve begun to understand anyway. That being the case I will end this post right here.