I haven’t written in a while. I guess I don’t have that much to say. It doesn’t mean I’m not still growing and moving forward though. I used to worry about things like that; whether or not I was growing spiritually, or did God forget about me, or ask questions like, “am I really saved?”
These days though, I am more relaxed. I am confident that the Lord Jesus is in Me for sure through His Spirit, and in control of my destiny. He is my life source, the power that moves me, motivates me, and guides me on my path. So, I don’t worry anymore.
In the past, I have prayed about having music as a part of my life again. I wanted it, but, was a little bit afraid. I had lost confidence and many of my abilities on the saxophone. Today, I am not a great sax player but I have redeveloped my skills enough to be playing with a band. In fact, it is a working band. And I have made some good extra money.
I still don’t have all the confidence in my abilities. It is getting better though. I still don’t practice as much as I should, but, I do practice. Every little bit helps. The guys in the band think I’m great. One day, I think I will be again.
I most definitely had prayed in the past about being alone. I was divorced in 2004. I didn’t think I would ever be with anyone again. I thought I would die of loneliness. I was tired of it. I prayed about it. Now, I have a girlfriend. I know, what’s the big deal, right? Some might say, “just get out and meet people; make your self available.” Well, that has never really worked for me. If you knew me you’d know that me having a girlfriend is somewhat miraculous.
The girl I’m dating, I have known for 30 years now. She is one of the nicest women on the planet. I never would have thought I’d be dating her in this life. She is quite a catch and a very bright light in my life. She is an answer to prayer.
I have definitely prayed about my health. The Lord has blessed me with doctors who really seem to care about me and my well being. By His Spirit He has led me on paths I don’t believe I would have found on my own. My doctors have been willing to go outside conventional ways of care for me. I am feeling better every day and getting healthier by the minute.
My current doctor works hard to find the right balance of medications for my issues. She also talks to me about diet and lifestyle choices. She has been extremely helpful in all areas. I thank the Lord for her.
God is faithful. I trust him more than I ever have in my life. Right now, I am very financially challenged. Who isn’t, right? Well, what can I do? I will trust the Lord on this too. I know He will work something out for me. He hasn’t failed me yet!
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight (Prov 3:5-6).
So, I am not lost. Even if I feel lost, God knows right where I am at all times. Spiritual growth? It’s more like Spiritual revelation. The growth and maturity are in Christ. And knowledge of that truth is being revealed day by day. Freedom is a process.