If you have been keeping up with me here on Faith, you know that I quit my school bus driver job a few weeks ago. And I can tell you, even though I’m gonna be short of money a little while, I am already feeling better. Whether that (my feelings) is temporary or not, I couldn’t say.
Three weeks ago I hit my limit at work. The kids I was transporting talked to me in ways no adult ever has. I couldn’t take anymore so I left.
Currently, I am searching for another job. I don’t know what I would be good at or what I might like. Also, because of my physical ailments I’m not sure what I can do. I have avoided going to the VA requesting more aid but I may end up doing just that.
There are other things going on in my life. Sometimes it seems complicated but it’s really not. I have put myself here and will have to deal with it.
I am standing by a friend and that seems to be hurting someone else, and at the least, pissing them off. However, I will not abandon my friend. It is the worst situation for everyone involved. My prayers are for all.
Anyway, life is what it is and I’m in the thick of it. I think life is about learning how to treat one another. It’s also about learning how to stand up for yourself. Learning how to love, not the way you think or what you think love is, but real love. Trust me when I tell you there is a serious learning curve.
You will mistreat some folks before you learn. You will allow people to abuse you before you realize you shouldn’t. Because when you finally discover Gods love for you, you will come to know love and love yourself. And in doing so get out of your abusive situation. When you discover the love of God you will eventually stop mistreating and abusing others because it is not who you are.
It’s more than I could possibly explain and have you understand from this single post. But rest assured, God’s Spirit is working this out in you right now.