I haven’t really written anything this year. It is not because I am not learning and growing. I just can’t seem to put into words what I am experiencing. Some of what I have learned is sometimes confusing. Sometimes I can’t process what I’m hearing or reading.

About 16 years ago was when the Lord began to reveal love to me. Since that beginning, I have come to realize what exactly John meant when he said that, “God is Love.” I am learning to see everything through the fact that God is love. So now some of the things that a lot of Christians say about an angry God just don’t seem right anymore. In fact, I don’t think God gets angry at all; at least not at man.

I have said this in other posts, that the more I realize how much God loves me, the more I love others, or at least want to. Or put it this way, we as people become what we believe God to be. So if you believe God to be an angry and strict and unbending God, it is likely you may tend to be angry and strict and unbending.

I take seriously the fact that Jesus says that he and his father are one. The Pharisees got all upset about that statement and wanted to stone him for saying it. The reason was that, in making such a  statement, Jesus was putting himself on a level with God. And I believe he was, on the same level. He said other things that were way stronger than that. Like,

“No one has seen the Father except the one who is from God; only he has seen the Father.” (John 6:46)

If Jesus is the son of God then I think it is feasible their natures are pretty much the same. I never see in the scripture where Jesus ever mistreats anyone. And the only time he got angry was when he ran the money-changers out of the temple. And he only ran them off. He didn’t strike them with a curse or disease or death. These are some of the things people attribute to the Father, or, the “God of the old testament.”

Jesus is the only one who can reveal who God is to us. That’s what Jesus is saying in the scripture above. And if what he says is true, then not even the prophets of old truly knew who God was. So perhaps some of the things written about God may have been misunderstandings. Maybe he wasn’t as cruel as some of the writings made him seem.

Like I said, we tend to become what we believe God to be. Maybe before Jesus came, and certainly afterward, we have been misunderstanding our Father and our God. I don’t come to these conclusions lightly. Some of these thoughts have been a little scary for me because they go against what the majority of the church believes today about God. However, I am trusting God that His Spirit is leading me into truth.

But the anointing that you received from him abides in you, and you have no need that anyone should teach you. But as his anointing teaches you about everything, and is true, and is no lie—just as it has taught you, abide in him. (1John 2:27)

I trust him to keep me on the path of truth. Everything is starting to look different to me now. It’s fresh. It’s scary, but, it’s better. I actually feel like I am actually beginning to know Him, and not just knowing the scripture. There is a huge difference.