I spent several years "addicted" to pornography and masturbation, drinking too much, eating too much, and many other indulgences. And I spent many years (those same years) praying for deliverance to seemingly deaf ears. I was so afraid that the Lord hated me because of my bad habits and that I would end up in … Continue reading Take Hold of Grace and Embrace Your Righteousness
I can't believe how back and forth I still am. One day I am confident in my faith, strong, full of light. Then a day, or days, or weeks, maybe even months, I find my self in a foul mood, skeptical about everyone and everything, and sometimes generally hating life, and wishing mine was over. … Continue reading Double Minded & Unstable
TV shows have been my escape from reality for as long as I can remember. But the TV shows I watch are total fantasy. Nothing about them is realistic, and that's the way I like it. Shows like the Brady Bunch, The Cosby Show, and now Black-ish have been some of my favorites because they … Continue reading My Life vs. TV Fantasy
Sometimes things just don't work out it seems. I put a lot of time and money into getting my bike up and running again. I even put on a new exhaust system to give it a little rumble when I'm going down the road. Everything was going great and then, I lose the only key … Continue reading Locked Out
In 2008, I got my first motorcycle. I still have it today. Back then I had some different ideas about faith and how to develop it, and how to use it. I thought it was something to be exercised (and maybe it is) and to be used like money to get "stuff." And I thought … Continue reading Faith
I just read one of my journal entries made on this day 4 years ago. It was pretty dark. My mom had just past away. The entry was entitled, "Worlds." I probably posted the same entry on this blog somewhere, if anyone is interested in searching for it. My world isn't much different now than … Continue reading My Better World
I have spent the last couple of months learning to be a school bus driver. That's why it has been a month since my last post. I have been pretty busy. It is a fun job but there has been a hazard for me, germs. Little kids seem to carry a lot of germs. I'm … Continue reading Ill For The 2nd Time This Year
