I have been struggling lately
For about 3 or 4 weeks now I have been struggling with my life. There is nothing unusual going on. I just find that I am dissatisfied. At the same time, I have to say that for about the same amount of time I have not cracked my bible, or, confessed the word of God, or had a proper quiet time with the Lord. Hmm, could this have something to do with it? Without a doubt.
As Christians, you would think that once we’ve learned the right things to do we would continue to do them to ensure that we don’t get discouraged and that we would continue to have victory in our lives but we don’t. I have disappointed myself in this way many times.
I get all judgmental about my “so-called friends.” Then I start in on myself. Then before you know it I have justified all manner of sinful behavior and picked again habits I’ve been trying to destroy for 20 years.
Well, I have had enough. Today I repent. Instead of ignoring God, my Father, I will go to Him and ask forgiveness. Because He is merciful He will receive me and set me back on the path to victory. Though I have not been vocalizing the horrible thoughts I have been having about my life, I will now begin again to say the things that God has said about my life. In other words, I will take up my shield of faith and put on the rest of the armor that God has provided me.
If you have been struggling like me let go of your struggles and take up the word of God and trust in Him. The bible says in Ephesians, the sixth chapter:
Finally, be strong in the Lord and in the strength of his might. Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the schemes of the devil. For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against cosmic powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places. (Eph 6:10-12)
You see our problem is not with people. It with those spiritual forces behind the scenes manipulating all of us to destroy peace and joy in our lives.
The Lord has directed me to his two greatest commandments for the new year:
Jesus replied: ” ‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’ All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments.” (Matt. 22: 37-40)
IF I can begin to accept wide, long, high, and deep his love, through Jesus, is for me; if I can begin to comprehend the truth that he accepts me JUST AS I AM, and will always accept me as I struggle to become who he created me to me; if I can begin to acknowledge the grace he has shown me in the safe, accepting people that have come into my life; THEN I can accept and love his creation – ME. And once I can accept that, when His delight in me is all that matters, THEN I will love him with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength. And THEN I can love my neighbor as He has enabled me to love myself, his creation, his woman, whom he will never reject.
Be enouraged. He is the glory and the lifter of your head, your refuge, your hiding place, your redeemer. God bless you.