At this stage in my life, I am convinced that God (my Father, my brother the Son, and the Holy Spirit) is a supremely good God. I am convinced of their desire and ability to capture all the hearts of every person who has ever lived and ever will live. I believe this because of personal experience and evidence in the scriptures.

This post is not to try to convince anyone to believe what I believe, but to try to express why I believe what I believe about God.

A long time ago, my life fell apart; at home, at church, and at work. I had little children, and I was facing divorce. That scenario alone was enough to affect my work life and stall any forward momentum I had there. I freaked out. I stopped eating. I lost a bunch of weight. I was stressed beyond belief. I may have even had a stroke. Fortunately, there was no lasting damage.

The pastor at the church I was going to at the time tried to help me, but I was beyond any help he could offer me.

Then, all that I feared came to pass: separation, being a single parent, and finally, the divorce I was dreading. As anyone could imagine, I felt my life was destroyed. I went many years trying to drown my sorrows with alcohol and other things. It’s a wonder I still have a liver.

I considered myself a failure, sidelined spiritually. I felt broken. I felt like God had abandoned me. I felt misled by the church. My life wasn’t working out the way they said it would. I thought I’d somehow sinned in a way that dammed me. But I kept on trying to please God through my works or deeds, though it was not working. I’m also sure that I was somewhat hard to live with during my marriage.

Many years went by before I began to understand the love and grace of God, and that I really had no idea about real love. I began to understand that no matter who or what I thought I was (good or bad), God loves me. No matter the way I was living, he loved me. No matter the sin that may exist in my life at any given moment, He loves me. There is nothing I need to do to prove my worthiness to God. In fact, only after I realized this truth about my Father did the harmful habits begin to fall away, and my tangled web of a life began to unravel. The burden of getting my act together was lifted.

Once I was able to be at rest in the knowledge of His love for me, I was able to take my focus off of myself and my “tangled life.” I realized that there was another life I could be living: the life of Christ. In fact, I’m still learning about life in Christ.

When asked when God’s kingdom would arrive, Jesus said to the religious leaders,

“The Kingdom of God can’t be detected by visible signs. You won’t be able to say, ‘Here it is!’ or ‘It’s over there!’ For the Kingdom of God is already among you”(Luke 17:20-21).

Jesus was operating in the anointing of the Christ of God. John 1 says that Life was in Jesus and that the Life in Him was the light of men. I believe from the moment of His incarnation (the Word came flesh), humanity and God were permanently joined to one another.

Thanks to Jesus’ incarnation into humanity, new life is available, and in fact, is now the nature of man. As the apostle Paul once said of himself, that it pleased God to reveal His Son in him so that he might preach Him in the Gentiles (Gal 1:16). paraphrased

Paul seems to be saying the Son of God was in him and that God revealed it to him. Further, I think he is saying that he aimed to preach in a way that the Spirit of God would reveal God’s Son in the rest of humanity. As I said, I believe man and God have been joined in Christ, an unbreakable union.

I believe all humans have been united with God in Christ, but not everyone knows. Also, I believe God works beyond our years here on earth (outside of time & space) to reveal His Son in each one of us.

There are many other verses I could use to show why I am convinced that God will not lose a single one of us. However, I’m only trying to show you how I arrived where I am. I’m not here to convince you or argue theology. I only know what I believe the Spirit of God has shown me.

I encourage you to study and pray on your own. I’m not your teacher; the Spirit of God is. Only he can lead you to the truth of God.