I feel afraid. I am nervous and unsettled. I don’t know how many people will be able to come to help me pack up the moving truck. I need at least two besides myself. Shelly and Kirsten are coming down to help but Shelly has a bad back and Kirsten is only 12.
I have a hard time asking for help and have asked only 3 guys for help. I don’t have that much stuff. Hopefully, some folks from church will be able to come over to help load the truck as well.
I know that moving is the right thing. My children need me. I feel that the Lord also has given me the confirmation in this. I should have written it down when He gave it because it’s vague in my memory, but sure. Jesus said, “Greater love has no one than this than to lay down one’s life for his friends.” (John 15:13) My kids are closer than friends. They are my family.
I am content with my life here in Florida. I don’t want to move. First, because I hate moving. Second, because I don’t like change. Third, I think I am still a little angry about my family being torn apart because my kids never should have had to face the dilemma of living without one parent and having to choose to go and live with another. They needed their mother and wanted to go. I don’t blame them.
My flesh says to me, “Why should you have to move to accommodate them. They all left you. Now they want you to move and uproot your life. That’s not fair.” However, my spirit, the Spirit of the Lord in me says to give whatever it takes to show them that you love them.
I am willing. God faced the same situation when Adam and Eve chose to live independently of Him. Their choice was one that devastated their lives and everyone who came after them. Our Father God gave up everything in order to make things right for us again. As a man, the son of God faced the same fears I feel, yet he moved forward with God’s plan, demonstrating God’s love for us. The result? He gained billions of sons and daughters born into the Kingdom of God.
I am willing. If we are to live as the Lord did then we are to be willing to set aside our lives when necessary. I love my kids. They need me there so, I will be there.